A few days ago, I came across with a big transformation and comprehension.

I understood that I have no point, no purpose, no wish to live and move on with this life anymore. The main reason is people. I was and I am always sensitive with how people behave with me or even with others. A few days ago I had enough.

My life goal was to make a difference in human kind, on this earth, to do a better, to show better. To show and spread love and kindness. But I don’t want this anymore. People don’t change, more over people don’t care and most importantly people HURT EACH OTHER EVERYDAY EVERYWHERE. I’m done. I don’t want to help people anymore as I had enough. I had enough that plenty of people hurt me all the time. Doesn’t matter close person or not they always do that. Because people are screwed up. All around the world.

I’m tired also. I got tired of being kind and good. I’m tired of fighting with the whole world. I just don’t see the point anymore. I understood I can’t live like this anymore. I don’t want to lose myself because of others. I don’t want to become same sheep as everybody. I just don’t want to be in a society anymore. People are sick and I don’t want this illness.

I’m tired of fighting with myself because of all the traumas I have because of other people. Those traumas are influencing my daily life.

Don’t get my wrong, I tried to fight, each time when I would lose my faith, something, somebody, or even myself would safe me. If I wouldn’t move on because of me, I would find other person as reason to move on. But no more.

What I wanted to say, that I need to change my lifestyle now, I don’t want to do anything that has to do with making humanity better.

If to be honest, I want to find a simple job and live somewhere outside all the social media and the rest of the world. Just go to a nature, have animals and be there with my love of the life. I don’t need anything else.

I’m done with people cruelty and justification.

I’m out of this game and I don’t want to be included anymore. I have no idea what exactly I’m supposed to do as I am adult and I need to make a decision by myself but I don’t know. I will figure this out. But for now that is it. I know what I don’t want, will see where it will lead me.

If you are experiencing the same, just be calm, you’re not alone. Everybody usually puts themselves down and stays in society because they are afraid to make a change, they accept the rules of government and does what needs to be done. Others starts to do drugs or alcohol because to live in this with clear mind is awful. It is dangerous and impossible.

I don’t know how long humanity can go this way. Everything is so wrong, but everybody just simply accepts that and forgets. Soul is becoming nothing. Ego is becoming everything.

xxx VP.