Hello! Well, 2018 came to the end.

And it is time for a year review…

Or more precisely Top 10 moments or what I figure out this year…

2018 was really difficult, funny and eyes opening year. But I want to leave only positive vibes. As I think dark becomes the light anyway. If to be honest, I have way more than 10 things to write about. But there are a lot of personal moments which I want to save only for myself.

10. This year I had one big loss. I ended up a friendship with my best friend. The same girl we had a journey to Poland… The same girl who knew me perfectly. And I understood that sometimes friendship which may look stronger and honest of all others can come to the end. And what hurts the most is to let go everything you’ve had experienced and I would say it hurts even more than all bad things I have heard about myself. But it sounds like nothing positive you can find in here. No, there is some positivity – I noticed that I became more free with others. Now, I can enjoy other friendships (without getting any jealous of my BFF). And now I can say – I have no best friend. I have a few friends which I love, respect and appreciate. I know they feel the same for me. And that is it. Enough for labels.

9. Well, I’ve got the job by my studies specialization. I can proudly say that I’m manager of cultural activities. But why it is only on number 9? Simply because I can’t enjoy this work. I don’t want to be a manager. And I have left only 6 months to end my studies. Sadly or not, I’m waiting to do what I really love, not what I’m studying. 😉

8. If you remember my story about kitty. That would be my number eight cause it is sad to know that sometimes you have no power or authority to do something you want. But that situation taught me how to stay strong and how the world needs help. Help dealing with our greatest demons.

Blog link – Real life/ Realybė

7. This year I had so many ups and downs. There was only one, no, two moments in the summer, when I felt endless calmness and peace with nature. I also wrote about it. To feel unity with nature is unreal amazing feeling!

The blog link – Unity/Vienis

6. Once again – friendship with BFF gave me a lot of bad memories and one thing I have lost is a trust. I just couldn’t trust anyone anymore. I think you will understand why. But four people proved me wrong in December. They showed me that I can trust others and that trust everyone must gain. But it is real. Disappointing, but sometimes trust in friendships means nothing while silence means everything. But I’m glad that they helped me to believe in people again. And you know what? If someone think that trust is nothing, I don’t care. I will always trust people and if they are not doing the same for me, why I should care? They lose friendship. Not me.

5. This year I’ve met a lot of new people and some of them became so important in my life. Not everyone. But almost all. And people that I have met this year, surprisingly, they all helped me to see the world from the new perspective.

4. I understood that no one can tell you or give you advises about love. You and only you can say and feel what you love. And I don’t mean only your true love of the life. I mean love for everything – work, friends, life and etc.

3. As you may know, I didn’t quit choir… Because a lot of things changed in there. And I’m happy that I am there because at these few months I experienced so many good things in the choir. So many emotions and unforgettable vibes. Just amazing how quickly everything can change.

2. This year I had four song festivals. They were in – Klaipėda, Kaunas, Vilnius (Lithuania) and students song festival – Gaudeamus in Tartu (Estonia). I didn’t participate in Klaipėda song festival, but of other three I enjoyed the most – Tartu and Vilnius! Travel to Estonia brought me a new friendships and a lot of amazing memories. Vilnius song festival was so emotional cause all the time I was thinking that this is the last my song festival ever. I even cried. And I may be right. Cause the future should bring new things and some things needs to end.

1. And year top 1 moment… I participated in an international poetry festival – Poetry Spring. For the second time. But this time experience was different. But also good. And I can say – to speak in front of people, to courageously publish my thoughts – is an amazing feeling. That makes me happy. To talk in front of people about things I care – wow. Also, this year I had a lot opportunities to make progress in reading poetry and talking in front of people. And I’m really thankful for this kind of moments.

So, that is it. I hope your 2018 was better than my. 😀 I wish you luck, positivity and happiness for the next year! Let’s show what we got for 2019!

Also, a BIG THANK YOU, for being with me and reading my posts. Thank you, that you care and trust. ❤

xoxo,

VP a.k.a – Evening Owl