Happy 2025!

I wish that this year would be much better to you in all ways possible!

I would like to do a review of 2024 as I think most of people went through many experiences this year.

Firstly, I am thankful for 2024, however, it was difficult year and strange, but I do see some positives there. Majority of the year was awful. Most positive things I can talk about is that I travelled quite a lot this year and I started saving up money. I did travel before too, but not as much. I do appreciate those trips. I visited Edinburgh, Falkirk, Aviemore and Scottish Highlands, Ayr Beach and went to Prague (Czech Republic) and also visited many different locations within Glasgow.

Until last year my situation with money was not great, so since last year I’ve decided to finally secure myself and started saving up money. I had enough of being in unstable situation where I need to worry about my money. Highly recommend to check your financial situation as well as it is important and many people don’t put enough effort or time improving this.

Well, I am happy for me degus. I have 2 degus and I’ve spent so much time with them, trained them and they are soo lovely. Pets are our saviours sometimes.

Minuses

One of the most difficult things I’ve realized is that we never stop learning, we never stop evolving and experiencing things. Life throws rocks at us and tells us to pick ourselves up and walk further. I thought I am old enough to know everything and understand everything. Oh how much I was wrong. I thought I had enough lessons in my life, but here, I am getting more and more and more.

Last year made me question everything. Myself, my faith, my beliefs, people and life in general. I realised, I still don’t have all the answers. I doubt I ever will. But I want to know! I am a total Mulder. From the X-files. Truth is out there, I want to believe, I want to know, but when I find out the truth it hurts, I don’t like it and I don’t want to accept it. I think my expectations are too good and life is actually rough, full of negative experiences, ups and downs. As much as we would like to see just flowers and goodness, that is not how it is.

I have learned many things about myself, let’s say what kind of person I am, what to improve, what do I want from other people and etc.

Most of the important thing in my life last year was a relationship. I’ve learned so many things about relationship between a man and a woman, that I did realise how complicated it is and how difficult it is and how it is never just roses and love. What I also realised, that after being hurt, I don’t want any relationship at all. Before I came to the UK, I have met this type of people, where they didn’t consider having one relationship, they wouldn’t want to be with just 1 person. At that time, I couldn’t understand why and how. How can you not want to find that 1 amazing person and just stay with them for the rest of your life? Until I learned, there are no awesome people. Expecting that your loved person never gonna hurt you is the same as expecting it never rains in desert. It happens and it will happen. Because people are not perfect! They will do mistakes, majority of them are not even because of you and they will hurt you! It’s exactly how it is, only people who we love can hurt us. People we don’t care about cannot much hurt us (of course there are exceptions), conclusion is that – we cannot expect people we love to not to hurt us. Everyone can hurt us, no matter how much we care for them or love them.

Unfortunately, I’ve learned it hard way. No matter how good you can be with someone, you cannot expect they will treat you the same. Even our parents hurt us, although, they should be the ones, who loves us unconditionally. Doesn’t work that way, does it?

I have learned, that no matter how much effort or time you put, it doesn’t mean person you are with will be always perfect, always nice and etc. People have their own mindset and their own problems. In relationship usually all problems come out as well and it can get rough. When we are young, we are pushed to believe that love is something ought to be easy while in reality it is a hard work between two random people and creation of life together.

My work? Well, I will be honest, not great at the moment. Difficult to explain as I would need to include specifics of my job, but in general as always – management treating you as are nothing, paying you the least, but wanting you to do all work, while management is sipping tea. The best I can explain. And it is always your fault, but never managements. Corporate jobs are exhausting. Hierarchy in there is very toxic.

Place I live and rent right now, oh it’s awful. Agency, landlord. 😀 all problems in a flat just added on top of other downs I had to experience in 2024. However, I am learning what property you should be looking at, what things in property could go wrong and etc. I mean this practical experience is always useful.

Oh another thing that I’ve learned, not always things you do, will turn out to be good. Nope, some things you will do, will be a mistake. Might be a harsh mistake, but one that you must to learn from. I know, sounds awful. Like, how to deal with consequences of your own actions, that you thought are good but only few years later realised, that nope, it’s not good?

So yeah, I have been through too many challenges, I did learn many things and I want to grab my life and sort it out. I will try to make my life better this year and hey, you should do so too!

2024 – thank you for experience and emotions (well at least I can confirm I am an emotional being 😀 )

2025 – let’s sort these things out now.

Regards, Egle.