Hello, I am furious.

Got tired after my work and you know angry at the same time, as it seems not matter how much you do, how much you try, its never enough….

But wanted to complain about being an adult.

Just realized what a scam it is. When I was a teenager, I couldn’t wait until I can be an adult, have my freedom and my mum was always saying don’t rush to be an adult. Ha, if she or anyone else would have properly explained what does it mean to be an adult, I would at least mentally have prepared for that.

Everybody just talks how you can get freedom and do whatever you want. Excuse me? Have you heard about money and a job? Without these – no freedom. Freedom does not exist in our world. We all depend on money, jobs and other people.

Being an adult is just constant worries. Seriously, need to worry about money to pay bills and rent, you need to have a job but at the same time you need to find a job you like, cause you can’t work a job you hate. Don’t forget before that to get a degree or experience, otherwise – not high enough paying jobs. At the same time you need to be able to sort out things at home: laundry, cooking, cleaning. If you have pets, then pets. You also need to find a ”soulmate” and marry each other and have kids? You also need to find your purpose, find things you like to do. If you have kids, God may help you, (I cannot truly imagine having kids right now), well you need to make sure you are taking care of them, otherwise you are just another bad parent who brings damaged soul to this adulthood. Oh yes! Don’t forget a therapy after all traumas you have went and maaaany many other things.

Nowadays with social media its even harder, you just keep seeing how peole are travelling, enjoying a life and you feel like you are behind, you want to travel and go to places, but then mhm, you need time and money and friends? Of course, yeah, as an adult you must socialize and have friends, otherwise, you get a depression. And on on. It never ends. I am furious because who said being an adult is a freedom? I need to do so many things, when? WHY? Like what if I don’t want certain things?

Also, can someone tell me why we as society accepted the life the way it is? Why we accepted the wages we are getting paid? Do we even realize, that our wage was made up by someone? Not surprised so many of us complain about not being paid fairly, cause we are not!

On top of that, I need to worry about climate change, about wars, killings and other horrible things that may happen. HOW?????? And these things affect us! Daily. Our economy, society, friends or relatives.

You know, at this point I am just happy being alive. The other day I was listening to a radio and there were parents talking that their daughter was at her friends, then she was going home and they received a message from her saying that if she won’t come back, she wants them to know that she loves them… And she was killed….. LIKE WHAT ON EARTH IS THIS? How wars or killing someone else is even acceptable? Actually, this reminded me, that we also need constantly to take care of our health, because, if you are not healthy – you cannot do anything, you cannot get money, next day you are on the street! How awful all of this is? Seriously, I am not surprised when some people want to run away (alcohol, drugs etc). Because how anyone can live in the world we have right now?

If you read some news, again, constant negativity, everything is bad, we are all fu*ked and etc. You know, last thing I wanna know if someone got killed or injured. Why there are no good news? They say, enjoy small things, how can I? When I look to every corner its – a problem, problem, problem…………………..

I can’t.

I don’t understand how anyone can. Oh if you tell me, I am too sensitive, YOU SHOULD BE SENSITIVE TOO! If you are okay, with whatever is happening with a world, you are a part of a problem. Especially, you know what I hate the most? Wars. Some dude decides to make a war and now all of us are suffering. Not acceptable. Go and fight yourself in front line if you want so. But see? Do those all leaders go on a front line????? Of course not, they are sending people they don’t know anything about to die and they like glorify themselves as what of a God they are. Disgusting. And even though we can all donate, protest, the fact remains the same – few people rulling all of us and we are somehow accepting that….. 8 billion people on earth, but 1 person decides to make a war and we are all like – yeah ok…..

Basically, something needs to change. I would love to give a solution, advise, but until people start figuring this out, changing the ways we live, we are all damned. We are more likely to die of nuclear wars than a meteor or even aliens. We are good enough at killing ourselves.

Be an adult, yeah, how? Schools don’t each us this, parents neither. So how we are suppose to manage being an adult?

Also, don’t start me with schools, those MUST change. The school system is just as bad as anything else.