Hello,
I know it is a weird revelation but I was thinking about how my life changed. Childhood, teenage years, student years and current life. It is actually incredible how your life can change. At the same time it is scary. When I was a kid, I never thought that everything will change so much. Just maybe few things. But now, my environment has changed, people and friends. Seriously everything!

If anyone tells you – people don’t change, it is a lie. We all do change and it is very difficult to accept new you!!!

I recently went through older chats on FB with certain people from my past (yes I do that because, I guess, why not?) Reading your own messages can show how much you changed. At the same time my mind went back to those memories, people, experiences. You know, one way, it was beautiful to experience those things, but at the same time, I would not want to go back!

It’s sort of a thing where I appreciate those people and those times a lot. What makes life interesting is meeting different people. Making those memories that are there for your lifetime. You know, in the end I realized that all bad memories go away and only things you (at least I) remember are good things. Good things that make you happy.

It is also strange to see your evolution as a human being. So weird to be like, wait, that was me who said it? Or done it? Like sometimes makes me wonder, what on earth I was thinking? 😅 in my head it feels like, yeah I am the same Egle. I am same person, but when I think about the past, it’s like 3 or 4 Egles lived until I got myself where I am. Weird. Well, understanding this, makes me realize, that same happens with other people. At some point no one can stay the same, we are evolving constantly!

I remembered that one year I had 3 major events happening in literally 3-4 days timeframe. Basically, I had a final exam and after defending my degree I’ve got 10. Which is the highest grade in Lithuania. I graduated from my Bachelor’s degree. After that I participated in a short-film festival where we had to create short-film in 72 hours. And finally on top of that, I’ve got my heart broken because I thought I was in a relationship with a guy that I honestly fell in love with just to find out he counted me as one of his friends with benefits! 😂 At that moment the emotional baggage was too much, I won’t lie, it felt that I am out of my body at some point. Too many things happened. Later on, I dealt with all emotions and seriously that is nothing compared to other things that happened in my life 😩 Do you think I am the same person after those experiences? Definitely not.

What I wanted to point out is that life can change very quickly and very unexpectedly. You may never know. Of course you can try and keep the things relatively the same, be surrounded by same people, same city and etc. I just think that in cases like this we still change just probably more steadily and a bit slower.

Sometimes we don’t even realize how much we can change. I like to keep a diary and then go back and read on my thoughts, it does amaze me sometimes what philosophical theories happens in my brain 😀

Now I am in the UK for almost 4 years and only now I have started to embrace new me… I know it sounds weird but trust me, it took me a long time not only get used to live in another country where everything is so different, but also I have changed too. A lot. I am definitely not the same as I was when I left my hometown and I think I have struggled with it the most. To accept that I am not the same, that I have experienced new things, I have realized many things and I definitely learned new things. Actually, what made me realize that is when I went back to my hometown last year. Being there was weird and I think that made me think: wait a second, it is me who changed… Of course people I met during that time changed too, right. And it is weird, I won’t lie.

In conclusion, please remind each other, that we all change, we evolve and that sometimes we do indeed make mistakes that we realize were stupid only later on. We cannot always make a right decision or a choice. Happens in life that some choices look good until we choose it and experience it. Good thing to know, we keep changing and that things may never be the same. Ever.

Also good reminder, just because now things are stable and maybe even boring, doesn’t mean that next year it’ll be the same. Life can change absolutely the way you were never even thought of it. Of course, need to remind you, that sometimes we are the ones who need to make a first step in order for that change to happen. Sometimes no one will put us in a new place, we need to make a first step ourselves.

For the final end of this post 😀 here is the thought I wrote tonight at 1:30 AM.

Life is unexpected wave that takes you away and throws you in random islands until you find your way back to home.