Hi,

you know what, I thought when I’ll reach certain age, I won’t have much of mental crisis or life crisis. I mean I won’t question what is the point and etc. I already questioned it and always found a reason why it is worth to live. Becoming an adult made me realise how generally bad world is. Obviously, now I have a question – why it is the way it is?

I know. You’ll say there is yin and yang, coin have two sides and evil won’t exist without goodness. But why? Why no matter what we do we will experience bad things?

I thought when I’ll be an adult there will be less pain and more compassion, love and understanding. But oh no… I would say I was more understood when I was younger.

What is the point to live if you gonna experience bad things every day? If it is not your family, then it is your friends. If it is not your friends, then a workplace (or school), if not then it is your partner. If not your partner, then it is your kid. If not your kid, there is neighbours. And finally, if not one of these, then here – natural disasters for you, wars and other bad things (illnesses, economy etc).

Now you’ll ask what does it have to do with soul mission?

If you believe, that everyone has purpose, that we choose this life, please explain to me, how we as conscious beings would even choose this? Who would choose to suffer or who would choose to be a bad person? Why soul would choose to kill millions? Why would this even be a mission?

Basically, what I am saying, it doesn’t make sense. Mostly, why soul mission or afterlife is forbidden to remember? Why we can’t remember? Why it is kept as a secret? If it is good thing, why it is kept as a secret?

The only thing that makes sense that this is universe experiencing itself and there are no souls or missions. More it would make sense if it is hell on earth, not a heaven. Definitely not a heaven.

Honestly, I have tried to be positive, but it is so damn difficult when on every corner you see bad things or something happens that hurts you. Yes, I have tried the thing to have my emotions neutral. Which means basically not to be too happy about something or too sad. Just whatever happens, keep it low and quiet and not too much emotion. That is not possible.

People are very egoistic and concentrated only on their own good. There are two types of people – people who suffer 24/7 and people who egoistically getting greedier and happier by making other people miserable. With this current situation in our world, I can say, there is no way we have souls or that this is not a hell.

Btw, yes, everything is possible. Whatever thought you have it is possible. Because if there is so many bad things possible, good things are possible too. Might be not in your lifetime, but definitely possible.