Hi,

how are you?

Recent years made me think how difficult life actually is. You know, when I was young, I thought getting older is getting easier. 😀 all laughs on me, it doesn’t. It gets more complicated and when you think you’ll be getting more freedom, no. Made me realise you’re even less independent.

How should we process the life? I really would like to know other people thoughts.

I thought being positive is enough but it is so damn hard to stay positive when there is everyday something happening. It makes me sad realising how many people have bad lives or how many people are hurting each other and how in general everything is not fair…

Practically, I’ve been sold by idea that earth is hell. Especially, when I realised that people don’t know how to love and I don’t even think love exists. From all my experience, people who suppose to love you are the ones that hurt you. You cannot say that is love.

Love was one of the things that moved me forward and now, when I think love doesn’t exist, makes me just disappointed and question. So, how do I move on from this?

Yeah, you can love yourself and do the things you enjoy. But hey. To do things you enjoy you need: other people, money, time and energy.

All those things that average adult doesn’t have.

Social media – doesn’t help either. Helps with one thing and then ruins other things.

As I think social media opened eyes for a lot of people, to realise how bad it actually is.

I literally have no idea how others do it and how they motivate themselves as I get less and less motivation. Like no matter what you do or where you go, there always be somebody controlling your step. Whether it is your government, rich people, your workplace, your partner, your kids, even your friends.

The only thought that Universe is one makes me feel a bit better. As it means there are no feelings. Emptiness but wholeness at the same time. It makes me feel that I’m not the only one. And I know I am not. All of us are struggling with our own demons, but like, how to survive?

My overthinking is gone on tops. Seriously, I overthink everything and all the time and I’m tired of that but at the same time, well, if I don’t overthink, I will get hurt.. Overthinking is very unhealthy, I was not doing that before, but people gave me PTSD. Seriously. I can’t understand people being cruel and hurting each other. And oh well, that happens daily with all of us!

People say bad experiences, mistakes teach us to become better. I would disagree with that. I witnessed many examples where bad experiences just ruin people and make them worse. Some even start behaving the same as somebody hurt them or do revenge.

Why people cannot just treat each other good?

So, how do we process the life when all we can expect is something bad happening? Why there are so many errors and not many solutions?

How we should make our life easier? How should we make each other’s life easier?

Okay, we can get happy about small things, we can meditate, go for walks, manifest and etc. But like how to process life when there is always somebody there to stab you in a back?

Do we just accept, that there is always something bad will be or do we fight for a better human life?

If we want to fight for better days, how do we do that?