Helloooo guys,

Basically, I never thought I will go through this and I never thought that it is a thing. The old yourself dying and new one being born.

What I mean?

The changes in your life that make you better, more mature. Your lifestyle changes and you know there is no way back to where you were. Not only that. You don’t even want to go back to that lifestyle. I personally, never thought what it would feel like. It is heavy, difficult, it makes you go through your own bullshit you had, it makes you to fight with yourself.

I just recently realized that this is what I was going through. Letting go all the past, letting go all memories, hobbies, friends, places. My old mindset. Everything is just dead now. New me is growing up and it is weird. For a very long time I did not understand what is happening with me, but I realized this is what it needs to happen in order to achieve my goals. Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying this is a bad thing. And I am not saying that old me was bad. No. But I would have never been where I am if I would not have taken the journey I am in now. I would never get where I want. Old me wouldn’t be satisfied.

Not saying I am satisfied now. I am not. But I am still not used to the new lifestyle, new me and new life. I only recently started to let go of my past, let go of everything that does not belong to my new world or my old self.

Trust me, it was difficult. I was crying all the time. How I missed things, how I missed my friends. I missed my hometown and sooo many things.

My big change and old-self dying happened after coming to the UK. But the most significant breakthrough happened when I came back to Lithuania. After long time. I know that Universe/God did that on purpose. I am 100% convinced that it did not let me go back to Lithuania for like 2,5 years because it knew I would have not been able to let it go. After I came back, I realized I am ready. I am ready to say goodbye to my country and to everything that is there. I know how it sounds. It sounds terribly sad. But this is what we as humans need to do. Evolve. We need to become better and we cannot become better if we stay in the same environment or with the same people. It sounds harsh, but we do get comfy with old stuff, right? But we do not become better as in the end everything is the same. Same job, same places, same people. Few holidays a year.

I am not saying that everybody should move out from the countries they are in. 😀 but if you feel you are not satisfied with where you are – try it. Go somewhere else. Make your own way. For some people changing location might be a revolution of their life. Some people just need to change a career or have kids and they know they are changing. For me it was more drastic.

Also, this does not mean that you are not yourself. No, you are very yourself, just some things we grow out from. Some things do not work as they were before.

The most important thing is to accept that. Accept the change and move forward. Appreciate the past and welcome the future. Also, do not listen what other people say. Listen to your heart and do what it wants. People who understands will stay with you and support. ❤