Hellooo, how are you?

I do miss a lot writing a blog, but I don’t have much time. I hate the fact that we live in the world where we need to sacrifice things we love in order to survive.

Since being a child I never agreed with what was happening around me. I never understood this system that we are in and I never felt like home here. Atlhough, it does sound strange, but I am probably that generation child that nowadays are called indigo. I never understood wars, killings, concentration camps, hate and many more. I never understood money power, men power and all the other terrible things happening around us.

You know why? Because people are the one who can sort it out. People are the one who can make it better and people choose not to because of this weird thing called ego. Like everybody could live the way they want without pain. But there is always something in a way. Government, money, power, selfish people and etc.

I still do not understand why philosophy and psychology is neglected. So many of us are suffering daily, we trying somehow not to lose faith and belief. Who supports us? Barely nobody. That is disgusting.

My whole life people tried to change my mindset, they say I’m too good, they try to show me how reality looks like and you know what? I don’t care because I think it can be better and it should get better and not matter how bad reality is I still want the good reality and I still want all the best for all of us.

I get angry almost daily because of other people behaviour, it affects me, my health and my positivity. But I move on. Slowly, heavily, but I am trying to keep going and I do try to stay at the same level as I was before.

I don’t not judge. No, I am always interested to get to know other people so I could understand their background and realize that all they have been through has nothing to do with me. Of course, I know that I cannot allow others to treat me wrong. Sometimes I just forgive and see how it goes. If something needs to end, I end it. But like you have no idea that majority of us are been through something, that all of us are trying our best to keep living. If person seems happy, it abolutely doesn’t mean they are happy.

That actually happened to me. Back in Lithuania there was a time, I was not only unhappy, but I lost all my will. I went to a deep black hole. It was real bad. Just because I smiled and I didn’t talk with anybody, majority of people thought that I’m happy and some even said I’m glowing from happiness! Imagine hearing that when in behind those fake walls you just think how to dissapear from life.

But I got through that, I survived. I moved on. Again, life gives so many experiences, so many not good experiences, that you honestly start asking yourself, for what? You know. What on earth did I do in my past life that these bad things are happening? I seriously don’t know. Looks like I was a bad person and now I am getting everything back.

You know what, I even managed to forgot my spirituality… My beliefs and my prayers. I got stuck in some kind cycle that everything is fucked that I forgot one of most important things in my life. One of them is to find a truth! About everything. About life, about earth. About why we are here and etc. I forgot that my current job, my home, people around me they do not matter. At some point they will be just another bad memory. What actually is important is me and how I approach everything! Me is the only one person I will be with my whole life. I know other people like family or you partner/kids, they gonna be with you for a chunk amount of time. But not the whole time!

I wish for you and your people to understand that health, dreams, positivity, spirituality, truth, psychology and philosophy are the most important things in our life. Because this is what makes us empathetic human beings.

We should support each other and not terrorize each other.

Sending all the love and all the peace. ❤

xxx Egle