HELLO.

So, it’s only 2 months left till 2019 end.
And I can say that I’m tired. This time not physically but psychologically.

I’M TIRED OF:
Lies.
Unhappiness.
Aggression.
Mistrust.
Anger.

I don’t know about you but everything I wish for now is peace. Peace in my mind. Peace with my relationships with others. I do not wanna think about why people treated me that way or why they lied. It feels like I always have to open mysterious box which has so much bad influence.

Overthinking. That is what I’m tired of too.

Like, situation. Someone gets angry on you. And oh my God you have to solve that crossword just to know what happened. Why I even have to do that? If something is bothering you – say so. Do not hide your feelings from others cause it really makes both sides anxious.

Can we stop being angry? Can we stop make others unhappy?

I don’t know if there is problem with me or with the world but I just really want a peace. Clarity and peace.

And also I don’t understand why we keep lying to ourselves and others? Why we are so unsure about everything? For example. Relationships. If you DO NOT want to be with exact person – say it. If you want only some kind of profit – say so. If you LOVE someone – say it. It’s better to say than to lie.

One guy once told me that he always says what he thinks and feels. Sometimes it hurts him more than others. But that is how he have his clarity.

I find funny that sometimes we are the one who lets hurt us. We forgive and forgive all the time when finally we get enough. Why do we let others to do this to us?

Also, if people do something unexpected – talk to them. Sometimes we make stupid things cause we do not see other options. If you want to keep relationships, talk with that person. And if that person is not so close as you for him – talk. Just you must to know – communication is everything.

Sometimes I do not talk either. And then I hurt not only myself. So it’s better to speak up, to say the truth and get hurt. Because, unfortunately, you will not get rid of life drama when you live in society.

Stay truth to yourself same as with others.

Please, tell me, what is the point to hurt others? What is the point to hurt your loved ones? Why we bring so much anger to this life? So much aggression and mistrust….

Where is trust and positive lifestyle?