So hi!

How is your 2020 so far?

Today I understood one important thing. Actually, I am not sure how to call it. It’s like a redemption. The universe paying me back for my suffers from 2018 September till 2019 March. If someone says to me that nothing pays off I can’t agree. Only it took me 6 months to realize it.

Let’s get to examples. Cause we really do not believe in anything unless we see it for our own eyes. And now I saw it. Firstly, the time I mentioned at the beginning was so difficult for me. I begin to work full time, plus more than full time cause there were so many events, I’ve studied, I’ve had exams, I was still going to choir and oh God what about relationships, parties and etc. Also don’t forget illnesses and anger I felt all the time…

So, how I am having a redemption? Well, someone gave me a lot of free hours to finally sleep, I couldn’t find any work, oh I can swear somebody just wasn’t letting me got that. But anyway, I found my way to get some money. I also finally had free time to create, I had time to write new poetry, posts and just do the best what I can – write.

Last year I was sick on Christmas. I had a tonsillitis and that was so sad. This year I had the best Christmas! Like, I was sick a little bit but that didn’t put me down. Last year I had really unique but strange New Years. These New Years Eve was fantastic.

Last year I had awful January month. Honestly, I was in fight with everyone. Especially with one of the most important men at that time, this year I had an opportunity to fix this. We are okay. Well, I hope so.

Oh… And last year February was even worse. I’ve almost lost my mind. Literally. This year February is all about good time, good friends and good memories.

So, I just wanted to say, that I thought these 6 months from 2019 September till now was kind of a jail. But that it was only my imagination. And I’m so thankful for that. I understood that I’ve got the best present I’ve could.

And that is peace. Peace was one of the biggest things I’ve asked and wished for. ❤ I can 100% say that even if your life now is one big suffer, you will get your peace. Just have faith and you will see what beautiful things universe has.

I’m actually really happy that I had that time and I didn’t waste it. Oh noo… I’ve done so much spiritual growth. I stepped further my future. I’m stronger and I believe in myself.

There is no jail. It is just in our minds. And when we escape it, we can do anything we want. Trust me.