I think everybody needs some emotional relaxation. You know, to take one or two days of peace. I mean – no telephone, no computer, no people 😀 This is kind of peace where you can be with yourself and you can analyze yourself. It happens so rarely to me. I usually don‘t bother myself with a lot of information, communication with others or social media. Anyway, now my life is so busy that my soul says – you are tired, you don‘t need anything. I know, that it is a bad condition cause I‘m communicative person and I need to talk, bring joy to people every single day. And don‘t forget about Facebook, Instagram or YouTube! So much interaction with others. I also, abandoned social media.  I think emotional exhaustion is much worse than physical cause you just stop. It feels like you are the robot. You walk cause you need to do that. You eat because you need. You sleep cause you need it too. By the way, when you have an emotional exhaustion, physical problems also comes to you. You get some illness as your inside wants to scream out – enough walking with closed eyes. And I can tell, I got sick. My organism through illness helped me to figure out what is wrong.

So, if I needed to explain how I’m feeling all week – it’s like you are in some peace but you just don’t care. I mean, you don’t care who, where and why is happening. You are in conversation, lectures but it feels like nothing. You get no interest and no benefit. That is scary. For me, it is really scary.  You understand that you either need to disappear from life and leave you loved ones alone (and surprisingly everyone needs me and my support at those peace days) either you become a meme and you go by the flow or you wait when someone wakes you up. Of course, my best experience is to disappear for half a day or all day. Then you can focus on yourself and you can analyze why you behave in the way you behave. Difficulties are the main reason why you get this condition. Not a one problem but a lot of problems at once. In my case, I know that not a surrounding made me to feel this way. I’m the reason. As I noticed everyone tells me how emphatic I am. Maybe it is because I have artistic soul or I can absorb every emotion. But sometimes I ask myself – do I really feel what I feel? Is this love is mine? Is this anger mine? Is this suffer is mine? But in the end it is me who needs to disconnect…

I don‘t know if you get this feeling. But if you need to disconnect, analyze yourself and ask as many questions as you can. Ask yourself questions that hurts your feelings or those questions which you are afraid of. We all the time need to leave our comfort zone for others. But do we leave our comfort zone for ourselves?

Questions… What questions you could ask? I can start from the easiest – what made you to feel like this? When you understand that something is different? Where you’ve been and what you were doing? Then comes deeper questions. What is happening in your life currently? Maybe something beautiful happening but you can‘t accept that? Maybe you judge yourself for your behavior? Aggression or fear is now inside you? Love or happiness is taking you over? Are you considerate something? Maybe you can‘t make important decision?

Well, I could suggest you more and more questions. Always as I analyze myself I find new things. I can‘t tell why I‘m in this condition as it didn’t end. One thing I can reveal. Changes in my life just begun. I thought summer ended with changes… But no. It‘s still going on. Funny is only that everything seems is fine. Surrounding is clear, I don‘t need to understand anything, everyone became more open and honest. This is me. Inside my mind I have a battle which isn’t letting me to flow into the life. I‘m tired not only from the world and people, I‘m tired from myself and my behavior.

If you feel the same – take a break from everything. Try to be honest for yourself. Maybe it will help, maybe not. But at least you will know that you tried.