Hey!

How was your year? What downs and ups you had? Who made you smile or cry? How did you change?

My year was rough. So here you go, top 10 moments of 2019.

10. Well this year I had two illnesses that made me stay in bed for about a month. You would think – terrible. But this situation let me understand a lot. About myself and life overall. Finally, I noticed things I hadn’t before. Sometimes we all need a break from everyone just to catch up what is happening in our personal life.

9. I had a new experience to be an extra in film making. I actually enjoyed it. Of course as an extra you don‘t have to act, but what an amazing people you can find in there! I made acquaintance with really unique and interesting persons which helped me to see the reality. All the time I admire that we are so different and similar indeed.

8. Volunteering in Vilnius Film Festival. Well, I am not the first time a volunteer, but this festival brought me new opportunity to meet filmmakers and I saw many good and strong movies which are so inspiring! Volunteering is so good for your personal growth.

7. Beside my poetry reading at Lithuanian Writers Club, I also read my poems in two new places. First was Naujoji Romuva event in Varėna. There was an event with many well known poets from Lithuania and I just couldn’t believe that I also was there. I didn’t fell worth to be in such a beautiful surrounding. Anyway, I like that experience but it just felt uncomfortable. Next reading was at Teacher‘s house, Vilnius, I was reading poetry at night. Mostly all participants were songwriters and I read poems. Cozy and warm night. I’ve also decided to go of my comfort zone when I read in a new place. Maybe change my reading skills or tell really personal poems.

6. I am young and in my life I hadn’t so much alcohol but recently I had many “celebrations”, so I’ve decided not to drink it. (I’ve addiction for coffee and that’s enough 😀 ). The biggest influence on that decision had my people. I was in the company which had alcohol very often. I saw how it changes people. That is wrong. So wrong… People do not have a purpose, they solve problems with going out and drinks… For the first time in my life I heard that drunk person can make something creative. I think it kills creativity. If person can’t create while he is sober-minded that means he lacks confidence and is not relaxed. And this is wrong. I know we all have our own relationships with things, but please, think if you really need alcohol and drugs in your life. And if you need, then why?

5. This year I’ve grow up as a person and I fixed my thoughts. After last year summer I was lost. I closed myself and I’ve done nonsense. But in the same time I had very good and fun memories. This year brought me so many experiences. And that helps you to go further. I don’t know exactly where I am walking, but we live for the highs and ups. 😉

4. As I’ve already wrote in my blog post you have to be careful with advices. I will leave a link below but remember, only we can rule our life curves.

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3. Participation in project – Odisėja 72. Well, I had a few difficult days back then as I had to work, to help film and I had no sleep for more than 24 hours. But it was worth it. New people and new opportunities.

2. Before top 1 moment how can I forget my bachelor degree! This year on June I officially become manager of cultural activities. Will I stop here? No. But I‘m glad that I had this stage of life because it brought so many things. Critical thinking, science, studying, friends, events, exams, stress and happiness. Everything. One of the best life stages for now. I can be proud cause I got ten for my work and I didn’t expect that.

1. Fight between light and dark. Yes, this is my number 1. Everyday and every minute people on different continent fights with goodness and evil… I wrote about this also, but just now it became so important. We need to choose the side. It is easy to pick a dark but it makes you a mass, not an individuality. Light demands fighting and insights, but this is the only way to make your soul happy. Soul is always happy when is standing near the sun. Stop justify cruelty and bad things. Be an example and show how we can live in peace. I can‘t agree with thought – without dark we wouldn’t have light. Why it became normal? Let‘s fight. We need to enjoy life and not suffer. We create happiness for ourselves. An we create light. AND the most important thing – LOVE. You need share love with others. Always. With everyone. Love and be loved. ❤

So, in the end, I WISH YOU GOOD LUCK, CONFIDENCE AND HAPPINESS. Do instead of dreaming!

xxx Vakarine Peleda a.k.a. Evening Owl.